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Lim sup. my friend, lim sup.According to Borel-Cantelli, you can stop aging, but you still can't live forever. -Christopher Small August 19 Dying Is Hard. Comedy Is Harder.Dying Is Hard. Comedy Is Harder.By JERRY SEINFELD
Published: June 24, 2008
THE honest truth is, for a comedian, even death is just a premise to make jokes about. I know this because I was on the phone with George Carlin nine days ago and we were making some death jokes. We were talking about Tim Russert and Bo Diddley and George said: “I feel safe for a while. There will probably be a break before they come after the next one. I always like to fly on an airline right after they’ve had a crash. It improves your odds.” I called him to compliment him on his most recent special on HBO. Seventy years old and he cranks out another hour of great new stuff. He was in a hotel room in Las Vegas getting ready for his show. He was a monster. You could certainly say that George downright invented modern American stand-up comedy in many ways. Every comedian does a little George. I couldn’t even count the number of times I’ve been standing around with some comedians and someone talks about some idea for a joke and another comedian would say, “Carlin does it.” I’ve heard it my whole career: “Carlin does it,” “Carlin already did it,” “Carlin did it eight years ago.” And he didn’t just “do” it. He worked over an idea like a diamond cutter with facets and angles and refractions of light. He made you sorry you ever thought you wanted to be a comedian. He was like a train hobo with a chicken bone. When he was done there was nothing left for anybody. But his brilliance fathered dozens of great comedians. I personally never cared about “Seven Words You Can Never Say on Television,” or “FM & AM.” To me, everything he did just had this gleaming wonderful precision and originality. I became obsessed with him in the ’60s. As a kid it seemed like the whole world was funny because of George Carlin. His performing voice, even laced with profanity, always sounded as if he were trying to amuse a child. It was like the naughtiest, most fun grown-up you ever met was reading you a bedtime story. I know George didn’t believe in heaven or hell. Like death, they were just more comedy premises. And it just makes me even sadder to think that when I reach my own end, whatever tumbling cataclysmic vortex of existence I’m spinning through, in that moment I will still have to think, “Carlin already did it.” July 02 Getting something done now, seriouslyI was reading my mails from mathcampers, and I realized that two years from this day, I arrived in tacoma. God I miss it, that was one of the most passionate experience in my life. Until now, I'm still trying to relive that joyful experience and to find that place, those people, that community, there lies my happiness, my ambition, my place. I had it tough with Waterloo, but I gotta hang on.
Five weeks agaion, from today, all over again, maybe I can still find that place that had changed my life. I gotta leave some responsibilities I'm trying to take, and alienate all disturbances.
Five weeks all over, math till we die!
The four courses I will take now, for the first two weeks:
Real Analysis
Abstract Algebra
Stochastic process
Differential Geometry Following up there will be:
Measure theory
Galois theory
Tensor Analysis
It'll be all crash courses, of course, but at least I shall cover all the basic proofs and theorems. April 06 推荐歌曲，牛奶@咖啡：越长大越孤单C'est un garçon sans importance collective, c'est tout juste un individu.
-La Nausée
And you, you have to love me too, not an image, not an idea, not in spite of who I am.
- Sarah Williams, Waking The Dead
What shall it profit a man if he shall gain the whole world and lose his own soul? -Matthew And just at the moment
when someone at my side says: "There, she is gone!" there are other eyes watching her coming, and other voices ready to take up the glad shout: "Here she comes!" And that is dying. -杨德昌|Gone From My Sight小组
Je t'accompagnais au conservatoire, je revisais mes examens, tu m'écoutais parler Italien, Allemand, Russe, Français, je révisais mes examens,tu criais, parfois avec raisons, le temps passait, sans raisons, tu criais sans raisons, je révisais mes examens,mes examens, mes examens, mes examens, mes examens,le temps passait, tu criais, tu criais,tu criais. J'allais au cinéma. Pardonne-moi Françine. Paris, je t'aime 当我沉默着的时候，我觉得充实.我将开口,同时感到空虚 让他们怨恨去,我一个都不宽恕.
滑铁卢的一个慵懒的春天的早晨，太阳让你觉得整个世界都蓬松了起来，鸟叫，像大水沟的早晨，十多年前。 本来想讲很多东西，很愤怒的，但是因为亲爱的朋友们的问候和陪伴，提不起情绪来。 March 23 Our ephemeral love and fragile image of perfectionYa, ya, I watched too much Frasier recently. Anyway, I identify with Daphne, literally,
Act 2
Scene 1 - Niles' Office
Fade in. Niles is talking to a patient and looking through his
Rolodex.
Patient: So, you don't think I have a germ phobia?
Niles: Not at all, just a healthy sense of personal hygiene. [Niles
hands him a card.] Ah, here's the number of the man who cleans
my telephone. The best in Seattle.
The patient goes to leave, but pulls his hand back from the doorknob.
Niles: Oh, don't touch. There you go.
Niles opens the door for him. Frasier is leaning against the
doorframe.
Niles: Frasier. What are you doing here?
Frasier comes in.
Frasier: Oh, I just wanted to see how you're doing after last night.
Daphne caught me up on what's been going on.
Niles: Wonderful. So she's talking to every therapist under the sun
but me.
Frasier: She said she tried to talk to you.
Niles: No. She tried to blame me. According to her puppet master
Gloria, Daphne overate because she was afraid that she
couldn't live up to my image of her.
Frasier: Well, there may be something to that. She does have seven
years of fantasy to live up to.
Niles: What fantasy? I have a very realistic picture of Daphne.
I love her for who she is, I have since the very beginning.
Frasier: All right. When exactly was "the very beginning" for the two
of you, anyway?
Niles: Well, don't you remember? You introduced us.
CUT TO:
The scene cuts to their first meeting, from [1.03] , "Dinner at Eight."
Frasier: Daphne? This is my brother Niles.
Niles: You're Daphne?
Daphne: Why, yes I am!
As he moves across to shake her hand, we see that present-day Niles
and Frasier are observing the memory in the background.
Niles: When Frasier told me he hired an Englishwoman, I pictured
someone a little more... not quite so... you're Daphne?
Daphne: Right again. It's very nice to meet you.
Frasier begins to speak to present-day Niles.
Frasier: Look at you, Niles. The woman's a stranger to you and yet
you're ready to hand her your heart.
Niles: Well, I may have been a tad smitten. What's your point?
He focuses on the memory of Daphne as she bends over.
Frasier: My point is... Niles, pay attention! My point is your
so-called realistic picture of Daphne has been clouded
from the start by your intense attraction to her.
The scene CUTS BACK to Niles' office.
Niles: All right. Perhaps at the beginning I was blinded by
infatuation. But over the years, I've learned everything
about her. And my love has only deepened. I've learned
that she is caring and, and compassionate. And she can be
moody, sometimes. She likes jelly on her pancakes, instead
of syrup. Uh, her laugh is like music. Oh, and that girl
can dance!
CUT TO:
The scene cuts to the Snow Ball from [3.13] "Moon Dance," as Daphne and
Niles dance the tango.
Niles: You're beautiful! You're a goddess!
Daphne: I don't ever want this moment to end!
Niles: Then let's not let it!
Again, the present Frasier and Niles are watching.
Niles: This is one of my favorite memories. See, that's the dress
I wanted her to wear this weekend. Isn't she spectacular?
Frasier: Indeed she is.
Niles: She's perfect! Oh, oh, wait! Look at this. Watch.
In the memory, Daphne throws her leg high onto Niles' shoulder.
Niles: [smiling] I come here often.
Frasier: I suspect part of you has never left.
Niles: Can you blame me? Look at us! We're magnificent together.
We're moving in perfect synch.
Frasier: There's that word "perfect" again.
Niles: I know what you're thinking. Just because this evening was
perfect doesn't mean I'm idealizing Daphne.
Frasier: Niles, did you hear yourself out there? You called her
"a goddess". You can't build a higher pedestal than that.
Who could possibly compete with that sort of image?
The dance ends and everyone, the present Niles and Frasier included,
applaud.
Niles: That's not fair. I'm well aware that's just one side of her.
I'm also acquainted with her ordinary, domestic, everyday side.
CUT TO:
The scene cuts to Niles and Daphne in the kitchen of his apartment
from [5.20] "First Date," chopping vegetables. Present-day Niles and
Frasier are there, watching.
Daphne: [in time with the chopping] Doomp-da, doomp-da, doomp-da,
doomp-da.
Niles: Hear and soul, I fell in love with you...
Heart and soul, the way a fool would do...
Both: Madly! Because you held me tight
And stole a kiss in the night.
Frasier: Oh, please!
Niles: What?
Frasier: Even your everyday memories are idealized. How long until
the cartoon blue bird lands on her shoulder?
The memory of Niles and Daphne singing starts again.
Niles: All right. So maybe my memories of Daphne are perfect. Has
it ever occurred to you that maybe Daphne just IS perfect?
Niles begins to sing in a sort of scat fashion with the memory.
Niles: I held you tight,
It served you right,
I stole a kiss... in the night.
He laughs along with the Niles and Daphne in the memory.
Frasier: That's it. I'm going home.
The scene CUTS BACK to Niles' office as he gets off his couch.
Niles: Wait, wait. How come?
Frasier: I've nothing else to say. Niles, I love you. And I love
Daphne. I just hope the two of you can work this thing out
together.
Niles: No, wait, don't go, don't go. Help me understand, why is
everyone acting like I've done something wrong? The only
thing I am guilty is loving Daphne, and that's all I've
ever done.
Frasier: Yes. Yes, and how did you love her? From afar. You were
never in love WITH her, you were in love AT her. Now, you've
been given a chance to experience her in a real relationship
and yet for some reason, you're resisting it. Rather than
see her as she really is, you keep holding on to the memory.
Niles: No, that's not true.
Frasier: Niles, the woman gained sixty pounds, and everyone in the
world saw it but you. All you ever saw was a perfect woman
in a red dress.
A long pause. Niles takes a deep breath and leans back against his
desk.
Niles: Okay. If you're right - and that's a big "if" - why would
I do that?
Frasier: Maybe Daphne's not the only one who's afraid she won't
measure up. Maybe you're afraid too. After all, if it
turns out she's not perfect, then there's a chance things
won't work out. Then not only will you lose Daphne, but
you'll have wasted the last seven years of your life
chasing an illusion.March 04 Confidence in myselfOver the years, I've developped a stupid confidence in my math ability, here's the deal:
If I do minimally 4 hours of cal 3 per day, and on average, 6 hours of cal 3 per day, till the end of the term, I'm entirely sure that, I'll end up just fine!!!
there's no rush though, it takes a bit time before changes take place.
this effort will show all its benefit in approximately one year... |
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